I was in my own room but lying on the 5-year-old mattress, it was the oldest we owned. Positioned like I was to fall and searched for thoughts. My brain usually runs at this time of the night, desiring for sleep. But today, today was different, I skimmed through my mind with no near hope for sleep. My leg hurt, so I kicked it with the other and stared at it from the corner of my eye. Just as I did so, my vision was a blur, it slowed down and by the time, every image I saw was like a vintage animation stuck between changing its scenes. I felt trapped between a desire to faint and a hope for life.
Just a little secluded was what I felt from my own life, and that feeling mixed with many others groped my mind, my heart, and soul. It was alcohol to my burning body, and in no time, I got high on emotions I never felt. I tried to get on my feet but the numbness in my skin rose up on to a level where I’d rather have broken bones than handling the weight of my feelings combined with the tears stored in my body. I was apprehensive, sweats broke from parts of me, burning sensations rushed through my eyes. I tried to call for help but my lips puckered shut themselves, and all that came out was nothing more than a soft squeal.
Later, I heard the smoothest footsteps hastening into my room while I was lamenting under my covers. Entered without my consent, naively, unknown of my presence. It was dark and all I could establish about the other body in the room was a 3 footed little girl with the longest, straight hair. It was my minor fellow. She heard me weep but didn’t utter a word, came close and embraced me tight, found me from under there and kissed on my forehead. Slowly tucked my curls behind my ear and whispered, “It’s all okay” and within seconds, she walked away.
Those three words somehow meant the world to me. My eyes felt weary again, my lips smiled, and my ears could only hear joy. Sometimes the most unexpected people can make such a difference for that your heart wishes to beat again. Although I was still high, I was landing safely from a dangerous flight. That was all enough for me to keep myself jubilant.